should I or shouldn't I?

I was informed by the podiatrist that I have ligament damage in my foot. So he said I'm going to have to have a cortisone injection in it after I finish my three rounds of ultrasound therapy. I was going to have the shot next Wednesday till the PT scared the bejezzus out of me saying that the shot is really painful and that I just need to see if Ultrasound will work first. Now I'm torn and don't know what to do really. Unfortunately, I'll probably have to go with what's paid for instead of what would be more comfortable. I only have 500 pounds of physical therapy paid for by BUPA and that's it and I may be getting close to that but I do know the shot is paid for already (or approved anyway) so I'm guessing that if I get to my limit in PT and I'm still having pain then I'll go with the shot. :( Anyone want to hold a chicken's hand?

That's life in my world. I miss my horse and I'm sick of the house too. I did a load of laundry because I have nothing left to wear! Nine hundred more loads to go...

Meanwhile... more boring food choices!!! Please be nice today. I was alone all day and didn't really fancy anything.

9/25

Special K and ss Milk - 2 1/2
banana - 1
2 eggs - 3
ww toast - 1

ww bread with thin sliced ham, light cheese slice and ww mayo - 3 1/2
french fries - 1
ww cupcake and ww mini roll - 3 1/2

carrots & hummus - 3
banana - 1

2 eggs - 3
ww bread - 1
french fries - 1
banana - 1 (don't worry there is only one left!)

total: 25 1/2 points, only 1/2 point over! not bad! weigh in tomorrow!

Food Confessional

Warning: This post may be really boring unless you are my weight watcher's leader, in which case, please judge with kindness and understanding.

I have been off my feet literally for nearly three weeks now and it is driving me crazy. I have been in isolation and laziness all this time but tonight I finally found out what is wrong, I have some ligament and possibly tendon damage to my second metatarsal joint. I'm having two more rounds of ultrasound therapy and then next Wednesday I'm having a cortisone injection in the joint, then I will have to wear an insert in my shoe for the rest of my life but hey its better than being in pain.

I also fell on my ass and cracked my tail bone. I'm so stupid it is unreal. I was trying to keep up my exercise routine and decided to use my beloved exercise ball to help me keep fit while staying off my foot and low and behold it popped!! I heard an allmighty boom and I was mid air for a few horrible seconds (I would give anything to see a picture of my face) and next thing I know, I'm flat on my back in pain on the floor. I lay there for those few "am I paralysed?" minutes, then crawled to the couch. When I called my husband, he was so kind and supportive, he said "Let that be a bloody lesson to you." and told me not to move any more till he got home which I did, I lay on the couch like a wounded turtle and held my five cups of green tea till he got home and could help me get up. I think it was God's way of taking my mind off my foot pain by giving me an even worse pain in my butt. Very funny God.. I hear you laughing.

So this blog, aside from me moaning about my ailments, is about food. I'm feeling rather fat and horrible after so long of being inactive and just eating to pass the time (not as bad as it sounds but I bet I haven't LOST any weight if you know what I mean!!) so I decided that for a few days, maybe weeks, I need to keep myself honest and post what I am eating for the world to see. This seems to help my sister and I because it helps both of us learn. She learns that what she eats is awful and I learn that I'm not doing so bad and that I've come a long way but that I could do a bit better and the better I do, the more it inspires her to do better and its all good.

I'm allowed 25 points per day and will list those.

I write in my WW journal every day but I will only go back to Monday of this week:

22/9
Special K w/ skim milk - 2 p
Turkey - 1p
Nimble bread with ww spread - 2 1/2
French Fries (Walkers) - 1
Mandarin Oranges - 1
green beans -0
microwave popcorn - 8 (oops.. who knew?? you'd think I'd check that before eating??)
Home made Chicken with home made sweet and sour sauce - 4
few cashews on top of stir fry- 3
stir fry noodles - 2
pineapple - 1/2

total - 25 points

23/9
Fruit and Fibre and Semi Skim milk - 3 1/2
bread, turkey, ww spread - 3 1/2
french fries - 1
corn flakes with ss milk - 2
potatoes - 4
flora spread - 1
nuts - 1 1/2
cheese (very tiny piece of cathedral light) - 1
Jacobs club - 7 1/2 (oops... husbands fault for leaving them in the cupboard)

Total - 25 points

24/9
Special K & ss milk - 2 1/2
banana 1
coffee w ss milk - 1/2
soup 3
banana - 1
french fries - 1
carrots and hummus - 1 1/2
spanish omlette (recipe from ww shop and cook book but dr'd up a bit) - 7 1/2
banana - 1 (what is the deal with me and bananas today?)
ww wafer cookie thing - 1 1/2
tesco light choices fruit bars - 3

Total- 23 1/2 points

every day I've also had copious amounts of green tea with sweetner. I hope it helps! Weigh in is tomorrow if I can find the place. If not, then Friday.

No weigh in for last week

Friday I had to go to the stables to help out so I didn't go weigh in. I was secretly kind of happy and needed the break from the pressure that I put myself under. I think my body secretly conspires against my brain. I told myself to really gear up and have this big hard slog to November 4th when we leave for Oklahoma and immediately my body said ok don't burn another calorie, she's going on a rampage again, and I didn't lose one week and put on a half pound the next week. I have learned my lesson, fat thighs, and I have returned to my day to day approach and concentrating on eating healthy things and staying on my points and not being a diet nazi. We will see on this Friday if that strategy works. I know I'm a lot less stressed out though.

My husband is having a really stressful day at work so I'm worried about him. I know we will be fine, but I do feel bad that he can't have a job that he enjoys and that I get to work from home and ride horses in the day. Hopefully if/when we move to America one day he will finally find happiness. Lord knows he deserves it after all the shit jobs he's had to put up with.

On a positive diet note, I'm finding the power of green tea. A friend at the stables told me to give it a try and she's like a bean pole, so I thought it couldn't hurt. I have had bad experience with the bitterness of green tea in the past but have since discovered that blends like green tea and jasmine are very nice and any of the fruit blends with it are nice as well. Also, you must not brew it too long or it will increase the bitterness. I do my jasmine and green tea for one and a half minutes and with two splenda tablets it is just right. I had a couple of large cups yesterday along with one of my usual instant espressos and I think my metabolism was burning over time because I was radiating heat like, well, like a radiator! I'm trying white tea and pomegranate this week so we will see if that works the same. I did feel a bit anxious yesterday but I don't know if its related. I'm a bit sensitive to caffeine but I think my daily espresso boost is becoming a bit of an addiction so I have trouble getting going in the morning without it.

I also have a question for my fitter comrades. I have been knackered lately and wanting to just sleep a lot. I have been doing lots of activity last week so my question is, when you exercise a lot, do you sleep a lot too? You always hear that exercise gives you energy, but I've been absolutely shattered at night. I know it sounds funny, but I've never been this fit so I'm not sure how it feels. Thanks for any help!!